It's over and done.

Last Wednesday in 1800, I was planning to tell my hubby on what happened last Tuesday. I was meaning to tell him but it was not a good time. He has tons of meetings and has problems in resolving issues concerning reports. No! I told myself. Not now. He might get mad and leave the office without finishing his meetings. So I waited for us to get home that morning and I told him nothing. About 1030am, as I woke up,
I told our nanny to leave our house immediately, before my hubby wokes up. Ayoko ng eksena, baka madugo. Baka magkaron ng fight scene. So I asked her to pack her things because I can not let her babysit my little boy. I do not trust her anymore. She said, "cge ikaw ang bahala" in not-so-nice tone. I was so furious I wanted to kick her face, but I did not. I was crying when I told her I am mad, that I wanted to call the police. Our family trusted her but she so stubborn she never listen. I gave her hundred bucks and I went upstairs. My mom asked her to leave her cellphone (it was my mom's old phone and we let her use it) as well. She left our house crying, did not even apologize for what happened. I can not explain what I felt that moment. Maybe a relief.. I hug my baby so tight he pushed and tickled me. We both laughed out loud for a minute and I kissed him again and again. I whisphered it's over baby, she's gone.